I was the one with the world at my feet

This song was playing in my dream last night

I keep having really crazy dreams. I dont usually dream. I guess it's because i haven't been falling asleep drunk like i usually do.
Or in other people's homes like I usually do. I've been sleeping in my own bed, alone. The way things should be. Not with mike, not with marissa and bob, not with margaret, not with lena and rachel. My old cuddle partners.


Except I've been having bad dreams sometimes. Ones that make me wake up scared and anxious and then I have trouble falling back asleep. I was late for the megabus to go home (something i've been longing to do for a while now), I fell asleep on the blue line and ended up in forest park where some guy kept following me and trying to touch my ass (urgh, really?), then you were sleeping at her house and for some reason you had the nerve to call my dad and ask him to come get you. When I confronted you with it, you didn't even bother to show me you were sorry. You just kept acting like it wasn't a big deal and I was being the crazy one. I didn't want to tell you I was done but I needed to be.


I don't want to get so deep.


"What it is and when it stops, nobody knows. You gave me this life, I never chose. I wanna leave, but the world won't let me go."