"Jason Quever called. He said stop singing his songs."

"you don't have a choice, it's encoded in your voice
& everything you say makes it ten times worse."


There is no heat here. The last time I checked it was 52 degrees Fahrenheit.
My fingers are stiff and also feel like jell-o. Try to imagine that!
We paid the bill on time! I paid over $150 on my own.
Ugh, I'm miserable. I thought I figured out how to fix it because it kicked on, turns out it's blowing cold air.
Worse.

At one point, I resorted to plugging in my hair dryer and warming my hands and feet with it on occasion.

Will call tomorrow.

Pennsylvania? - Unsuccessful.

ps. lain, no more taxis this pay period!

We're taking it on.
Why don't we take all our weekends in the fall, at the same time.
All in all, you're still up pacing every evening, wall to wall.
And I'm left with mine.
Walking away when you know there's nothing, talking away at the pavement like you always did, and always will.
And it's getting old, why don't we take all the weekdays we can hold in a city.
I don't know, if it's easier to run when things go wrong and begin again.


Walking away when you know there's nothing, talking away at the pavement like you always did, and always will.
What to do, what to do, what to do, what to do?

The autobiography of an ostrich

$0892270022 does not work for the connection
“My grandfather was part of a guerilla warfare group”
I thought the two of them were in this together.
To my surprise, I turned around and saw you.
It’s getting harder to “rise and shine” when it’s dark at 6pm.
The next 15 minutes will define me as a student.
The next hour will define me as a person.
I am not an ostrich. I am a brick wall.
She should know better than to pull a fast one.
Testosterone is close to consuming those walls.
I’m not very concerned about the vibe, I’m going to give her what I’ve been promising.
I need to do the same for my own father.
“You know that I expect people to hold up their end of the bargain. So stand true to your word, Alaina.”
In terms of being parallel, I wish I could play stupid.
Don’t forget about health!
It’s only been this cold out for a couple days and I forgot what it’s like to have cold hands. I guess I had better get used to this, it will be months before my fingers aren’t stiff anymore.

My teacher, Virginia Atkinson, has a Logan Square doppleganger.
I need to start returning phone calls.
I’ve been taking steps towards being a better person and being better to people.
I was disgusted at how accurate that story was.
I couldn’t believe that things like that can happen.
It’s nowhere near it's end.
It’s getting easier not to call.

It’s finally the appropriate month for that song!
We’re 8 days away from what could be a melt down.
This is an economic meltdown. It’s funny that it took everyone so long to notice. It took the newspapers to spell it out for us. It took a credit freeze.
I think she was right in her winter thesis. I’m so prepared for this though, I’m on the upswing. All of the leaves and street signs are holding on for dear life. I’m holding on for dear life. Silver surfer.

I’m thinking about the night we watched a movie on the couch. My parents were sleeping in their room and we went outside on my back porch. I sparked the lighter but I could only see the flame in your eyes.

When it’s time to get in trouble, we knew just what to do.

i never would have guessed that the megabus offered free wireless

thats a plus one on the side of things that tell me humanity might be restored.

i dont want to be left with those words stuck in my teeth.
I bit off more than I could chew and I dont know what to do.
Swallowing is not an option, you dug right into this one.
Finding snowfall on state lines, I just want to tell you this before it's too late.

This customary abandonment will not be taken lightly.
I will always think of the back seat when I think of the summer.
The signals straight from the blender were returned with much less grace (or no grace at all.)
If you want to run away, I won't say I can't maintain.

I hope my fingers get in the way of my speech's path.
I hope the numbest displaces the part that feels.
I hope when you're here, you are here.
I hope there is something there to help with the restraint.

I don't have much time left until the year has slipped by.
Calendars are ticking time bombs, there's 43 seconds left.
I don't want them to tell me this is okay.
The truth is an erectile malfunction in the eye's of a man.

There is no room for don't ask, don't tell ideologies.
I think and feel in 45 degree angles.

I was thinking about today and it was a funny day.
I spent the entire day frustrated. I'm better now.

I had to keep doing things for people and eventually it came down to who was going to be more pissed that I didn't get their stuff done soon enough. That sentence is so confusing, I don't even know what that means.

Then I was standing at an intersection, waiting for the walk signal. (I hate crosswalks.) This guy was standing outside of this beat up, old blazer and he was yelling in Spanish to this couple that was inside. They just had their windows rolled up, except the woman in the passenger seat looked horrified. The guy just started kicking the side view mirror off of the blazer as he screamed. The mirror fell to the ground and then he started kicking the bumper. The bumper started to fall off the car. Haha, I didn't know what to do. This other guy was standing there with me just watching. I just stood there in shock that I was witnessing this. I can't believe the couple inside didn't do a thing about it either. He was standing there kicking the shit out of their blazer for a good 5 minutes and they just sat in the car and looked out horrified. I wish I knew Spanish.


Then, I'm sitting on the Fullerton bus on the way home from work. We were at Southport and these two girls were running to catch the bus (i didn't notice them at the time.) So I'm sitting there with no ipod and all of the sudden, as the bus pulls from the stop I heard this huge thud on the side of the window and i look over and just see a hand. I think I jumped 14 feet. The girls got on the bus because the driver heard them screaming. They sat down and started laughing hysterically about the situation and I started giggling to myself. They looked over and we all laughed for about 4 minutes together about it. All I said was, "Hey man, I was on your side!"


dumb story central.

ride the sky

It's the time of the year when everything is cold.
I am freezing. My hands are always pink and veiny.
My bruises are taking more than a decade to leave my body.
The yellow pigment is showing more than ever!
I can feel the heat beaming down on me, but it's fighting the trojan horse.
I don't want to miss you before you leave.

you, you're awesome.

desperate enough

Hey buddy, just so you know, I'm on your side.
My hands were soaked and I thought of you.
it's what we never were after all.


(someone please tell me my horoscope won't be right for once.)

dont scare me

It's the idea of tug o war.
up and down, and a "thank you" in between
I'm begging you to just tell me.
I figured you'd tell me if it was important.
don't pull me out of there, i never asked that of you.
It's all in the way you use your eyes.
Sleep is so close to my agenda, I'm not running parallel
thank you for being a part of this
please, leave me be.
don't just turn the volume down, listen to what I'm trying to say to you.


Don't walk on eggshells for me. I'm not as fragile as you think.