charisma

we had yet to discover.
you and me faded...

i seem to have mostly bad luck. Most of what I own is broken (my heart inlcuded)
It's my own fault for putting myself on the line.
I should have known better and any other time I would have

"We all relocated and moved and replaced them.
new bodies and things now, still remind me.
Get away from the dining room and the bathroom,
where I cried."

I used to want to save the world, now all I want is to leave the world with a little dignity.

I can't read my memos right now. My irresponsibility is continuously getting the best of me.
Fakes are ruling my life and somehow now I'm an alcoholic.
I hitchhiked to work one day and I pass out mid sentences.
I'm a wreck.
Stop it.
My insides are yelling at me.
pitchfork.

try to re-imagine me

Every time I listen to Cocorosie, i think of living in Columbia dorms.

The other day I caught a glimpse of Jackass, for some reason I could only feel my faith being restored. I don't know how to explain why.

"Occasionally, I want to breathe in the toxin that will shut off my receptors. The neurotransmitters will stop working right and my body will finally stop shaking. I will be able to breathe air like normal people do and enjoy the sky again. I remember when I wasn't like this. I remember when I thought I had the whole world at my fingertips. I remember when I was naive."

It won't be like that.

Today a lady left her umbrella on the train. I felt so bad because it was a nice umbrella. The lady matched, tiger print blazer, black pants, tiger print purse and black shoes. Her umbrella was tiger print as well. She was confused on how to transfer to the red line because the south bound was running elevated. I helped her but then watched her walk away. The second the doors closed I saw she had left her umbrella on the seat. I wanted to get off and go back and give it to her but I knew I'd miss her. I didn't know which way she was going on the red line. At the next stop, a bum walked up to the umbrella, must have mistaken it for a bag, tried to open it and then threw it on the ground. It made me really sad. That lady probably got really excited about buying that umbrella, and he just threw it to the ground. I didn't need the umbrella, so I left it there. I wonder how disappointed she was when she realized she left it.

(I need to stop feeling everyone else's pain.

Focus. Focus. Focus.
Focus. Focus. Focus.
Focus. Focus. Focus.


Focus. Focus. Focus.
Focus. Focus. Focus.
Focus. Focus. Focus.
Focus. Focus. Focus.


I sleep too late and stay up til the wee hours of the morning.
I need to fix my schedule.


Thank god for Logan Sq.
[via. chicago]

Went to a hawaiian grill with a friend tonight
I was rather impressed with their food quality.




95% positive I have a broken bone in my foot.
Need to go to doctor.
Need to buy groceries.
Need to clean room.
Need to do laundry.


********I am just a man, still learning how to fall**